This entire week feels off for some reason. We still haven't unpacked anything. It's still winter. I'm still feeling sick and subsequently still don't know if I'm pregnant or not, which is the most excruciating bubble of time to endure ever. Oh and I've stopped working out and drinking smoothies. Did I also mention that we're in the midst of planning a hypothetical-not-so-hypothetical big life change? And that is stressing me the balls out because #uncertainty. So I guess you can say that I'm in a rut and I feel crummy. I'm so tired and sad I'm actually taking the morning off tomorrow just to sleep and maybe (gasp) haul my butt to the gym.
I have succeeded in staving off the winter blues so far this year, but they're creeping in big time this week. BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Time to read inspirational things. This is a start.
**EDIT** I went home yesterday and was determined to feel better. Kait and I ran 3 miles and went to the gym. Side note: the Provo VASA gym is the literal worst.
I took that half day today and am feeling a bit better, emotionally. Still feeling sick and blah physically. I went on a little run before I felt too sick to continue. Happy surprise...the field by our house has cows! I love that field. It gets the most beautiful sunlight. It was fun to explore our neighborhood by running. I also took a moment to soak up the shining sun outside before getting ready for work. I miss the sunnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.