Anyone who knows me know that I HATE being told what to do...from anyone. So when I went to institute last night with Matt, I did not appreciate the following interaction:
-This is my third time here so his teacher asks who I am
-so I tell him I'm Matt's girlfriend
-more people walk in, class starts
-I make one comment and two girls stop the class and say "I'm sorry, are you guys like dating or something? Are you both going on missions? What's going on here?"
-"Yeah, we're dating."
-"So are you going to go on a mission?"
-"He's going on a mission, I'm supporting him."
-"If you went on a mission, you could be back before he even gets home! What are you like 21? That'd be perfect!"
-"Actually, I'm 20. And I have no plans to go on a mission."
-girls don't hear me
-teacher starts talking about couples who have both gone on missions before and came back and got married
-i stop trying because it's not worth it.
Alright, let me get on my soap box for a minute because I like the view from up here. I am 100% supportive of anyone who wants to go on a mission, male or female. But I hate when girls get the notion in their pretty little heads that just because going on a mission is or was right for them, that they feel like they can make that decision for other people. I am excited for Matt, I support him and think it will be a great experience. But does that mean that I have to go on one while he's gone just to fill up my time? Because honestly, if I don't have the sincere desire to go, won't it be just that---a filler? I wish I had the desire to go on a mission. But I believe that I have things to do during those two years that Matt will be gone that could be more beneficial to everyone: like getting a degree, learning more about who I am ALONE, and trying to find my bearings before I get married. Really, I think that would be a better use of my time (personally), and I don't think anyone should have a say in that. It's my life and my decision. If I get the prompting to go, I will go willingly. But that is between me and the Lord, so I would appreciate it if anyone with the desire to sway me would just back off. Your time will be more well spent with a pushover.