I was fighting for my current weight, and I actually kinda lost because I gained 5 lbs while I was there. I gained 5 lbs even after working out 3x a week and walking the dogs a ton! Food, man. Why is it so easy to overeat 1,000 calories, but so hard to eat a deficit of 500?
I was just about to write, "Food will always be my enemy", but I realized that's not true anymore. Food USED to be my enemy. It was that fair weather friend that made me feel good for a little bit, but horrible about myself later. But I have since changed my relationship with food. Now it's fuel. Now it gives me nutrients and energy and joy. But it is something that I will always struggle eating too much of. Always. And I've accepted that.
For me, the key to not overeating is being busy. If I'm busy, I don't "boredom eat". But guess what? I'm here in Washington, we have one car, Matt's gone all day at work, I work from home, and I'm bored. We're in that weird transition period where we no almost literally no one here, and we have zero money because Matt wasn't working and we have hella hospital bills, and we just stay at home all day. So yeah, I'm gonna be bored.
But I looked back at a post I wrote a few months ago when Past Me had the forethought to realize that Now Me would be a 0 on the motivation scale. Past Me knows Now Me so well, girl. And she said this:
"I will do it. I will lose the weight. I will get to my goal. I will finish strong. I will do everything I can
to make that happen. I will forgive myself for having setbacks because I'm human. I will follow Dolvett's mantra, Hard Work & Dedication. I will cut myself some slack. I will put the work in. I will rest when I need to. No matter what happens, I will get healthy. "
There it is. That's my motivation. I had my rest, but I'm working out on Monday! And I'm giving myself some slack, because this summer was adventurous and amazing and such a learning experience, but IT. WAS. HARD.
A setback is not a defeat. A setback is a crossroads where you determine if you're going to become stronger or give up. And I choose to become stronger.
Who's with me?
PS I've decided that hiking is my BFF.